| Long Time |
[Sep. 6th, 2005|07:07 pm] |
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Its been a while since I've wrote down what has been going on in my life, so I decided to update. Stephen and I started going out July 13th and we broke up Aug 13th. We decided we were going to try to see other people and what not. I was having the best time, everything was working out great, until I reliezed that all I want is Stephen. It stinks. But I don't know. Other than that everything is going pretty good. School is alright, classes arnt that easy but they are working for me. I'm actully doing ok in Ap Biology with is amazing. Well Ima out. Talk to you later.. <33 Seasonne |
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| Mixed Emotions |
[Apr. 17th, 2005|11:52 am] |
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Good News :: Stephen and I are back together, he asked me back out on friday. [yAy] I'm really happy that we are back together but, this weekend I was still trying to give him his space so when he gets back he will be happy again. I hope everything will be like it used to. Amy and Mike are [sorta] together. She said that they want to see how this week goes before they make it offical. [Good for them, good for them] Nick Faso is in town this weekend. He came out to Mike's last night so we could all see him. Matt Silva also came out there. [HOLY SHIT, DAMNNN] That kid is so gorgoues. I like could sit there for ever and just stare at him. [Hottie!!]
Bad News :: My 4-wheeler got wrecked but, it was a total accient. My left side of bac frame got pushed in about 6 inches so it is all cock-eyed. But my dad is [what do you know] being a asshole about the whole thing. He keeps yelling at me for it and keeps saying that I am lieing to him about the whole thing. When I'm not. But then he always has to solve [that's what he thinks he's doing] by hitting me. What's the point? I'm 15, and I'm fed up with him. I can't take it anymore. I'm about ready to pack a bag and walk out. I told my mom that I can't stand it here and she [I think] understand me. Everytime I am home I am getting yelled at by him. And again he always thinks the problem will be solved by hitting me. And I guess it does because I stop talkin about it but, [uGg] I hate this shit.
Anyways :: Stephen comes home from L-Cross today. [yAy] I love him so much. I'm -greatful- that we are back together. Well I'm go start moving around. Bye |
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| Wipped |
[Apr. 14th, 2005|09:44 pm] |
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I don't know what else to say besides, I'm wipped. He said, "We are going to go back out Monday. I just need a weekend to clear my head so when I get back I'll make you happier than what you were." He sucks! I love him so much. Oh yeah, I kissed him today. But he liked it. He told me that he liked it more because he felt that it ment more to him, then when he just used to kiss good-bye. And I think it did. Well I got to go. Good night.
I FREAKIN LOVE STEPHEN V. HAYES!! |
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| cRyInG |
[Apr. 13th, 2005|08:43 pm] |
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I just don't get it. He says he wants one weekend without me. He told me he wanted to make sure that I'm the only one he wants and that he's not thinking of anyone else. That kills me so bad because, I can't even talk to another guy without feeling gulity. Oh, well, it's his life. He's missing out, not me. I guess he picked a good weekend because, he is going to L-Cross with all of his friends and I don't like it when he goes up there becuase he gets really drunk and I worry about him. Now I can't worry because I'm not with him anymore. I don't have to worry if he cheated on me or anything. Damn I love him. Oh well... |
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| Trying To Get Though This... |
[Apr. 13th, 2005|06:32 pm] |
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Today was horrible. Mostly since Stephen broke up with my yesterday, I had nothing to get excited about. I loved looking at him though but, damn did it hurt so bad. Just to look at him and know that I couldn't go and give him a big kiss, or go up and grab his hand, or whatever, it killed me. I don't know what to think anymore, like why he actully wants a break. I don't know what I did to make him want this. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know that we've been fighting but, we've also been having fun. He means everything to me and it so hard just to let him go. I am not going to run back to him like I did before. He is going to have to be the one that comes back to me, whenever hes ready. I want him to see what he is missing out on. Everyone told me to flirt with guys right in front of him and make him jealous. But I just can't do that. He means so much to me! Everyone keeps saying 'Stop stressing over this, he'll come back to you. He loves you so much, he can't leave you like that.' I hope that all this is true. I know that he loves me, and so I've been told that he doesn't know if he made the right desion. But it hurts so much to think about. (Here I go crying again.) I keep thinking to myself that we're still together but, then when the facts hit, it sucks. Everything I look at, listen too, touch reminds me of him. Sleeping in my bed even does because, we've had so many nights together in it. Night were we've stayed up until 5:00 talking about everything. It was great! I have pictures of us all over my room, and I just can't take them down. I love him so much, it's killing me inside to be without him.
I MISS YOU
Seasonne
P.S.
Chantel, even though Stephen did that with you, it doesn't even matter to me. The talk we had today really helped me. I'm happy to know that someone is going though the same EXACT thing right now. And you know what I'm talking about. EVERYTHING! I love you. Thanks for always being there, even if it our worst time. Call me whenever you need, I'm always here. And if you call and talk to me about something, I'm proably thinking the same thing!! Thanks and I love you! |
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